Through These Brown Eyes

by Tanisha Bradford

Through These Brown Eyes …

iSee Myy Reflection :

Light Skin , Long Dark Hair , Myy-Sizee Curves ,

Big Nosee , Little Lips , -&- … Scars I’ve Endured .

Bags Pack’d Abovee My Cheeks For This Trip Call’d Lifee .

-Through Thesee Brown Eyes …

Lie Real Eyes , Recognizin’ YOUR Continuous Lies .

This Stereotypical Imagee You See When You Look @ Me Is NOT What I’m About !

So How Comee Eveybody Elsee Can See That Soon As iOpen Myy Mouth ?

But To Tha Person It Matters Most To Through Thesee Brown Eyes ; Besides Myself -&- God :

Just Tha Thought To Consider Me Human Is Against Tha Law -

In ... YOUR Books , -&- Tha Pages Cut , Slice , -&- Dice Me Deep .

Then You Question My Audacity When iScream “ Fuck Tha Police ! ”

Aha , You Neva Undastood -&- iGuess You Neva Will …

But iCan’t Hidee Tha Fact That Your Actions Makee Me Feel ..

Lost -&- Confused .

Abandoned -&- Abused .

Mistreated -&- Defeated .

Neva Really Needed …

Lonely -&- Weak ,

As Myy Chest Begins To Leak ; The Bleed Of Myy Soul Turnin’ Bleak On Ah’ Dead-End Street .

But … Runnin’ On Gas From Tha Past ,

I’ve Learned Doesn’t Last – In This Story Line :
Myy Book : Through These Brown Eyes .

-&: Oncee Upon Ah’ Timee – iRanted -&- Raved , Cursing Your Namee ;

Theyy Tried Tah’ Call Me Insane , Sayy iWas Missing Ah’ Piecee Of Myy Brain –

But , Ah’ Heart Ain’t Ah’ Brain ; Which Was Tha Sourcee Of Tha Pain – iWas Speaking From , iGuess …

Neva Really Thinkin’ Of Rememberin’ Everything Happens For Ah’ Reason So I’m Blessed .

YESS – Oncee Upon Ah’ Timee , Through Thesee Brown Eyes ;

iSaw You Rottin’ In Ah’ Cell – Damnin’ You Tah’ Hell .

Spit -&- Piss’d On Your Namee -&- Neva Felt Ashamed ..

Up Until Now , Kus Guidance From Tha Clouds –

Put Contacts On Myy Vision , Now Through Thesee Brown Eyes I’m Vivid .

-&- Thankful To Be Livin’ .

Responsive To Tha Need Of 2nd Chances To Be Given .

Myy Intellect Is Intergratin’ -&- Even Though Most Myy Lifee – Because Of YOU ,

Thesee Brown Eyes Felt Degrading ..

Likee Hell iWon’t Makee It Tah’ See Myy Better Days ; Through Thesee Brown Eyes …

-&- , Every Inch Of Tha Wayy , I’ll Neva Forget Tha Days , I’m –

Workin' On Forgivin' You For , Kus They – Oncee Tested Myy Faith ..

But ... I'm Strugglin' Tah' Let Go - Kus Tha Shit Is Still Happenin' ,

You Can Havee All Tha Money In Tha World But iPROMiSEE It Won't Buy Myy Happiness .

Or , Cover For Tha Times You Xtremelyy Crossed Tha Linee , Then ; Act Likee Everything Was Finee .

Guess You Was , Sippin’ On Somee Winee Or .. Doin’ Them Nasal-Lines .

But …  Ya’Kno ; It’s Alright – Because I’ve Humbled Myself .

I’m Learning To Lovee Me For Me -&- Accept Tha Cards iWas Dealt .

Staying Truee To Myy Goals , w/ Furyy In Myy Ambition ,

So Regardless Of What You Say , Do , Or Feel ..

Through Thesee Brown Eyes :

@ Tha Endd Of Tha Day ;

I’ma Flyy w/ Tha Birds – No Sleepin’ w/ Tha Fishes .