Red Fish, Blue Fish

When I was young I was convinced to hate men

Because all they could seem to do was vanish again and again

My dad disappeared and the only men I loved were my bros

He was like Caspar, except Caspar was a friendly ghost

So I went on in life stealing things he never bought me

Learning the hard way, the lessons he never taught me

Running around beating on people that simply looked at me wrong

I twisted up my fingers and believed colors and numbers made me strong

And one day I opened that book.. those words jumped out and “Rick James slapped me”

“One fish, two fish, red fish, blue fish,” And it was clear to see

I thought it was stupid, like loving from Cupid

But it made me see the pain more clear than getting smacked in the face by frying pan like one of the three stooges

I was a spitting image of the man I hated

I couldn’t let him get to me and I wasn’t going to be fated

I was deep into a whole that my father created

So I’m going back to square one but making sure he’s not negated

Because he dug it up to where I could see all the mistakes down his path

So, using my mind as a shovel, I’m making my own way.. standing on my 2 feet taking showers, not baths

One fish, is my father, making his fish, which is me

Red fish is my father, and I’m blue because I have the choice to be

It’s not red fish, red fish that’s boring and you may as well close the curtains

It’s red fish, blue fish because you have the choice to be your own person

By: Foga Sauni

Monster In My Head;

Standing here fight with my inner thoughts,
Trying to have a simple conversation,
Buht you’re just yelling and screaming at me,
Trying to convince me I’m wrong,
You’re the pressure I feel in my chest,
Feeling like I’m gasping for my last breath,
I’m trying to get you out my life,
Life without you is like a beautiful rainbow after a storm,
As I scribble out those lines,
Because I think your right and I’m wrong,
Buht then I realize I’m not the one messing up,
You’re the one trying to become Alpha-male,
I’m the one, who deals with struggle,
You’re the one, who just sit here,
Trying to dominate, and take control,
Buht I’m not gone lie, I like you around,
You’re the reason I made it this far.

By; Lysiya; Ly; Infinity